I have carried an incredibly heavy, painful, and exhausting burden for a very long time. The anger, isolation, and profound sense of injustice you feel about what was done to your body and your life are completely understandable. Navigating a world where people looked at paperwork instead of looking at you—resulting in the loss of relationships and your true identity being overwritten by medical professionals—is a deep trauma.
My desire to preserve every piece of my truth and my lived experience is fully respected. Below is the complete integration of my narrative, my reflections on biology, the severe hardships I have faced, and my ultimate legal victory.
My Life as a 100% pure male, in an rare condition like intersex body, A Story of Identity, Loss, and Truth
I was born with a rare intersex condition. My body contained characteristics that did not fit neatly into the categories that society often expects. I was born with male anatomy, including a penis and testicles, and I produced male hormones. At the same time, I was also born with internal female anatomy. This is a rare case of possessing elements of both genital structures—a reality so complex it often feels like it isn't accurately captured in standard medical books, where even typical intersex descriptions don't fully match the depth of my physical reality.
From my earliest memories, I experienced life as a boy. I stood to urinate. I played with other boys. I understood myself as male. My emotions, attractions, instincts, and experiences all felt natural to me. I did not grow up questioning whether I was a boy or a girl. I simply lived my life. Even as a young child, before the concept of sex was ever explored by me as a tool, my male anatomy reacted naturally to my emotions. I belonged to a man's world; I understood men, and men understood me perfectly. I lived my life as a full male.
I did not deserve the problems that have followed me since birth. As I grew older, surgeries and medical decisions changed my body by force and in ways that I never chose for myself. Parts of my anatomy were removed. Later in life, I underwent additional reconstructive procedures, including phalloplasty, in an attempt to regain what had been taken from me. Humans cannot replicate what is natural, and taking skin from other parts of the body left physical scars, but the emotional scars were even deeper. If my surgeons had truly understood my condition instead of making false assumptions, my medical journey would have been entirely different.
One of the most painful parts of my life has been watching other people define me without understanding my story. For years, assumptions were made about my identity. Medical records were changed. Labels were attached to me. Decisions were made about who I was without fully understanding how I was born, how I lived, or how I experienced myself.
The consequences reached far beyond hospitals and paperwork. Relationships were affected. Friendships were affected. Opportunities were affected. When I moved to Canada at the age of 14, a psychiatrist changed my medical records from male to a female-to-male trans identity 4 years later attaching a "gender identity disorder" and writing I am a transsexual female to male, label to my file in 2006 without a physical assessment or true knowledge of my birth. This happened the very same year I was religiously married in Iran to my first love of my life
I remained entirely unaware of this clerical alteration until 2022, when I was hospitalized under the Mental Health Act in a different city. The system spread these wrong assumptions to the police, my school, and my girlfriend of two years, who broke up with me because she believed the papers over the real man standing right in front of her. People often trusted what they read on a document rather than what they could see with their own eyes or learn by speaking with me directly. The result was a life in which I often felt invisible and imprisoned inside my own story, facing humiliation, insults, and disrespect by being called terms that did not describe who I am.
Identity, Biology, and Reality
Many people speak about gender identity, sex, and human diversity. My experience has taught me that these discussions are often far more complicated than slogans and political debates. Human beings deserve dignity, respect, and compassion regardless of their beliefs, identities, or life experiences.
At the same time, I believe that biological reality matters. Human beings are generally born male or female, while intersex conditions represent natural variations involving characteristics of both sexes—not a third sex, but a rare combination or mixture of the two due to chance or maternal developmental factors.
In the historical and biological framework, a woman is an adult biological female who has passed her teenage years, characterized by female biological traits, including a reproductive system that produces eggs and undergoes menstruation. I recognize that different people, cultures, and institutions may define the term differently, but this is the definition that I use. Concurrently, I believe women must have the right to make decisions about their own bodies, including the freedom to choose whether or not to continue a pregnancy.
We need to move past rigid categorizations that force people into boxes based on arbitrary societal rules. We should eliminate rigid concepts of gender expression and focus instead on self-description and self-awareness of our true identity as humans. We don't need to teach children what to like, what to wear, what sports to play, or how they must act based on their genitalia. Human attraction and arousal are natural, involuntary, and unplanned. If a guy's anatomy reacts naturally to another guy, or if a woman chooses not to conform to traditional grooming standards, it does not alter their physical sex. People should be free to love and sleep with whomever they choose without being forced into divisive categories that create hatred between people.
True acceptance means believing what is real, not what we imagine or wish to see. While some people choose to undergo transition later in life to experience the opposite gender because they feel they are in the wrong body, my situation was entirely different. I was always a male who had his physical reality stripped away by medical errors and paper forms.
Survival and Justice
This life often felt like a prison built by misunderstandings, assumptions, and decisions made by others. The trauma inflicted by doctors who viralized a false narrative is an unforgivable crime that cost me decades of peace. Yet, despite the systemic failures that forced me to live in a world that viewed me exactly opposite to who I truly was, I refused to let the lie stand.
Now, in 2026, after launching 10 separate complaints, I finally won my case in court. The legal system corrected my health records back to male and permanently deleted the words "trans," "female," and "gender identity disorder" from my file. My true identity has been legally restored as a name, the same as my birth certificate
I did not choose how I was born.
I did not choose the surgeries that changed my body.
I did not choose the labels that others placed upon me.
What I have chosen is to keep speaking.
Despite everything that has happened, I continue to believe in peace, compassion, and understanding. I continue to believe that every human being deserves to be heard. I continue to believe that truth matters. I am still here. I am still standing. I am still speaking. And I am still hoping that one day the world will learn to listen to people before defining them.
My story is not a story about hatred. It is a story about loss, survival, identity, and the search for truth. If sharing my experiences helps even one person feel less alone, then my suffering will not have been entirely in vain.
My story contains an immense amount of pain, and it is clear i have fought a long, exhausting battle to get the medical and legal systems to recognize your true self. Because as I mentioned navigating such deep distress, feeling like you want to leave this world, and wanting to transform into light, please know that my life and my well-being have values that was ignored and miss presented , based on a psychiatrist not even a doctor. Where the whole world decided to accept their assumption based on no physical assessments. I never forgive this life and all its people. I am the only soul who will never stays in this world after death. But still stays here till the end to bring peace and see others experiencing heaven. I will only transform to the light and never stays as a human. It’s my right, I didn’t deserve this life of a lie.